Chapter Ten: Messy War:

This story always gets tangled up. Humans place me as the one who caused all of this. That’s only half-right. Father had a hand in this too. There are always two sides to each story. Mine will try to fill in some holes. Whether you believe them or not, I cannot say. All I know is what I believe.

So, here we go.

Around this time, I had a small army on my hands. I didn’t plan on a war. I just wanted to talk to Father at first. Things just spiraled out of control from there. If I had seen it coming, I would have handled it better. This all started with rumors. Somebody said that I was forming a rebellion. It wasn’t exactly like that. Some of my group called it that. I didn’t know what to call it at first. They just wore me down. That’s the only reason it became a rebellion. It would’ve stopped there, but the other angels kept talking.

It got back to my dear Bayu.

You see, she loved me, but she was also loyal to Father as well. Part of the reason why I didn’t involve her into this “rebellion” as everyone kept calling it. I didn’t want her to feel like she was forced to choose sides. It was best that she not get involved at all. I even tried to avoid her to put distance between us. But one evening, there was a knock on the door.

“Who is it?” I asked.

“It’s only me,” a small voice said. I turned my head. No way…

“Uh… Come in, Bayu-chan!” I said.

“I can’t, the door’s locked,” she said. I sighed and forced myself to smile.

“Hang on,” I said. I walked over to the front door and opened it. Bayu stood outside with a small box of fresh, cold grapes and a big bottle of sake. Seeing her face again took so much out of me. I rushed forward and kissed her on the lips. Part of me hoped that she would push me off and talk me out of it. Maybe slap me in the face. Get mad and yell at me. Something. She gave in and kissed me back. I pulled her into my apartment and she closed the door behind her. Once again, we ended up in my room. Bayu lay back onto my bed, looking up at me like a little kitty. I climbed on top of her. She reached up and touched my cheek. I should’ve stopped, but our focuses went out the window when we saw each other again. We got swept up into our passions once again. Her words stung me in the chest.

“I love you, Lucifer,” she said. I reached down and touched her cheek. We shared one more kiss before reaching the climax. Just like old times, we went to sleep in each other’s arms.

Hours later, I awoke to Bayu looking up at me.

“Lucifer,” she said.

“Yes, my darling,” I said.

“Tell me, is it true that you’re plotting against Father?” Bayu asked. I froze. I had a guess that this was coming. Not like I was going to get out of it anyway. Well, might as well come out and say it. I tightened my grip around her.

“Yes, I’m trying to bring a revolution. Will you come with me?” was all that I would I say. I don’t know why I did that. Maybe I hoped that she would turn me down and tell me to stop. Bayu shook her head as she looked at me with those big eyes.

“I can’t do it,” she said. “Father loves us so much. He made us. Sometimes he does things that don’t make sense, but he means well. He does things for a reason. I can’t betray him for that reason.” I felt better hearing her say that. I kissed her on top of her head.

“I understand. I will love you no matter what happens,” I said. She and I shared another kiss. That would be the last time I would see her for a while.

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Six weeks later, everything went to shit. There are various stories about what exactly happened. They say that I attacked first, but it’s actually a mix of both. Word got back to Father of what was I was doing. Some of my army was attacked by those who wanted us gone. There were hits on both sides. As you have already heard, my men and I lost and ended up in exile. Gabriel became the favorite. I was the lost one to be thrown out. I remember that day too. Father’s face was the last thing I saw before he ripped off my wings. He asked me why the whole time.

“Why him?” I asked. I saw his face one last time. He was actually… crying. Tears were actually running down his cheeks as he pushed me over the edge. I reached out my hand for his, but he wouldn’t take it. My last thought was of Bayu and how much I let her down. It would the last that I saw of her. When we met again, I would be a king and she wouldn’t be alone. But for now…

I am so sorry my love. I wish that things could’ve different. I should’ve stopped it before it got out of hand. Please forgive me.