Chapter
Twenty-Eight: New Parents Again:
I should be used
to pregnancy by now. I mean, I am going to father another baby. It didn’t really
come out that way. At the time, I didn’t know how to take the news.
“What?” I asked.
This was in October. Bayu had her eyes lowered, looking ready to cry.
“I’m pregnant,”
she said again. “By five weeks.” Her voice trembled as she spoke. I didn’t know
why she would be afraid of me. I’ve been nothing but good to her.
“What’s the
matter?” I asked. Bayu shook her head as she looked down. I pulled her into my
arms.
“It’s okay,” I
whispered over her head. “I will take care of you.” I could feel her trembling.
There was so much that I needed to do. It came to my attention that she was
looking up at me.
“What’s the
matter?” I asked. Bayu shook her head.
“Come on,” I
said. “Please talk to me.” I turned her face towards me. Her lower lip trembled.
“Talk to me,” I
said. “What are you so worried about?” She shifted her eyes away from him.
“What will this
child be?” she finally managed to ask.
“Excuse me?” I
asked. My love stared deep into my eyes.
“I am angel,
right?” she asked.
“Yes…” I said.
“And you…
you’re not an angel anymore, are you?” my
love asked. I gave her a confused look.
“I’m still an
angel,” I said confused.
“But you’re
fallen,” Bayu said.
“So?” I asked.
She looked down at her stomach. It didn’t take long for me to get it. I didn’t
know what to say. I did struggle at first.
“Wow,” was all
that I could say. I looked into Bayu’s worried eyes. I kissed her on the
forehead.
“It will be
okay,” I said. “I will take good care of you. I promise.” She didn’t speak. But
I could see a little bit of hope in her eyes.
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We broke the
news to Irani. He didn’t know how to take it at first.
“I’m getting a
brother or sister?” he asked. I put my arm around Bayu’s shoulders.
“That’s right,”
I said. “You’re going to be a big brother. You’ll have someone else to play
with. Isn’t that great?” He didn’t know how to react. I saw his little eyes
light up. Irani ran over and hugged me. I smiled and patted him on the head.
Bayu was actually smiling. That’s the only time I really see her smiling when
she’s with our son. Maybe she would be happier when the other child is born. I
just had to see. I pulled my son and wife into my arms. Bayu had her hand on her
stomach. I actually started to feel whole again. Maybe this would fix our
family.
That was what I believed at least. But you have a guess about how that story went…