Longing:

I can�t get him out of my head. Everything lingers on me. The scent of his hair and body teases my nose. His touch makes me shiver. His kiss made my heart jump. I couldn�t erase the moment he entered me.

I closed my eyes and trembled. This is wrong; this shouldn�t happen. Yet, I want to so much that I squeal when I think about him. I looked around my room. Good, I�m alone now. I don�t feel like dealing with Bad Noiz right now. I�m too happy right and I don�t need her ruining it. I frowned as an image her filled my mind. I shook my head as I tried to think about something else.

Mosh reappeared in my head. My cheeks turned a bright red. My hands reached up to my breasts as I breathed in harder. I closed my eyes. The images in my head only got more vivid. I really don�t know how to deal with it. I really want him to do those things to him again.

Love me. Love me. Love me. Love me.

Only, he�s in love with my mistress, Noiz. They might even marry. I shouldn�t try and break them up for my own selfishness, but I can�t control my feelings. I mean, I want them to be happy, but I want Mosh to love me as well. I buried my head in my hands.

I don�t really know how to deal with this. I fell back on my bed. I need a new distraction. I reached under my bed and pulled out my mini-radio. I cranked it up and let the music take over the nervous silence.

Unfortunately, Sade�s �Smooth Operator� took over and put my fantasies into a higher drive. I huddled in a ball and just let it take me from there. I didn�t even care anymore.

Mosh-kun, love me. Love me. Love me. Love me.

I closed my eyes and got lose in another sexy fantasy with Mosh-kun.