War of the Heart:

I walked away in a hurry. I don�t know what just happened. We went from not knowing what to say to Pete trying to touch me under the table. I did enjoy it, but it was sudden. I was walking faster when I heard footsteps behind me. I stopped and found myself back at the abandoned street with the 78 Camano parked on the street. The footsteps were still following me. I didn�t have to turn around to see who it was. Pete had followed me all the way out to this abandoned street. I couldn�t believe it. He *actually* followed me out here. But what for? I heard him walking closer to me.

�Don�t come any closer!� I said aloud. He stopped just as I said.

�What�s wrong?� Pete asked me. I turned around to him. No one was around. We were both free to talk and say whatever we wanted without it ending up in the gossip world. I was only worried that I couldn�t say what I felt to such a beautiful face.

�Why did you follow me?� I asked.

�Why did you run off?� Pete asked me.

�Can�t you see why we can�t be together?� I asked him in distress. He just stared at me quietly. I felt hurt inside. He was my dream crush standing before me who wanted to be my boyfriend, but couldn�t. He was the man I wanted, but couldn�t have.

�You�re with Ashlee,� I said.

�So?� Pete asked. I swallowed hard.

�I have a boyfriend!� I said aloud to him.

�So?� he asked again. I felt my heart hurting inside of my chest. I wanted him so badly. But I didn�t want to be a home wrecker. I know how these tabloids work. They would crucify me in a heartbeat. Nobody would even let me live down that I stole Ashlee Simpson�s boyfriend. They would even call me a hussy and a slut. My life would be ruined. But yet, I wanted Pete so badly that it all seemed worth it. Tears were forming in my eyes. But I fought them back the best way that I could. I just had to say it out loud or go crazy.

�What do you want from me?� I asked almost shouting. Pete just kindly smiled at me.

�What do you want?� he asked. I kind of pouted at him.

�I asked you first!� I yelled at him. The man shrugged innocently.

�But what do you want?� Pete asked again. I stood there frozen in silence. To be honest, I didn�t know. I wanted Pete as my own but yet I didn�t want to ruined because of love. My mind and heart were at war with each other. It was all driving me crazy. I couldn�t stand it anymore.

�I don�t know!� I wailed out. �I mean I really do like you, but I can�t have you! You have Ashlee and I have my boyfriend, Tony! I really really want you! But I know I can�t have you! If I had my way, I be you�re number one and not Ashlee! If we got together right now, the tabloids would murder me! I just don�t want to bring trouble on all of us! It�s just not right! It�s just not right! I want you, but I can�t have you! It�s just not fair! It�s just not fair! I really do love you! I really do! It�s just not right! It�s just not right! I want you, but I can�t have you!� As I spoke all of this, I noticed someone was shushing me. I looked up and saw Pete standing right in front of me trying to quiet and calm me down. Either he walked over to me after all or I walked over to him while I was raving and ranting, but I now noticed that we were now just inches from each other. I now felt my heart pounding wildly against my heavy chest. I was talking over him at first, but then I finally got quiet. Pete and I were silent for a long moment. The only sound we heard the light night wind blowing over us. That sexy emo rock god took me into his arms. I suddenly felt so safe in his arms. It was as if my worries were all lifted away by his touch.

�I want you too,� he said to me in a low voice. �I know what the tabloids can do. But why do you care about what they think?� I went quiet at those words. He� wants me? He really wants me? But to what extend?

�I�m not going to be the other woman!� I blurted out. �I want to be the only one!� Pete shushed me again lightly. I shut my trap tightly. A nice pause came over us.

�Nobody is asking that of you,� he told me. I looked at him as if I didn�t believe him. Tears were lightly running down my mocha cheeks now. Pete lightly wiped them away. �Why do you women always assume that as soon as we sleep with you, that�s all that we want from you?� I looked at him slightly surprised.

�But what do you want from me?� I asked him again desperately.

�You,� he answered me with ease. I just kept staring at him blankly.

�But how can we be together?� I asked. �How can we even begin to hope to be together?� Pete just held me close to him. �Oh wow!� I thought. �He really means it about me!�

�So what does that make us?� I asked. Pete smiled at me.

�It�s up to you,� he said to me. Then he leaned down and lightly kissed me on the lips. He had me convinced now. I kissed him back deeply. We seemed to stay like that for hours. When Pete and I finally broke off, I leaned in close to his ear.

�That doesn�t mean your getting any just like that!� I whispered to him strongly. �I�m not a whore!� Pete just held me close and kissed me again. I kissed him back. Right then, I knew the flirtation games were on. When we broke away again, I looked him straight in the eye.

�I guess,� I spoke up. �This is good night, then��

�Yeah,� Pete agreed. We shared one kiss and parted ways. I had now been welcomed into Emo-Love Country. The natives have accepted me well. Something could happen between Petey and me after all. When, I don�t really know. But, I will keep my fingers crossed. I walked all the home smiling. Kylie Minogue�s �Love at First Sight� was playing loudly and happily in my head. I was deeply in heaven. This was cut short however when I wasn�t paying attention to where I was going and walked straight into a light post.

�Ow!� I muttered to myself in pain. The music just stopped in my head and I just walked home in pain. I think I chipped a tooth. But what do I care? I have chance with that sexy-beautiful Petey Wentz. I can�t believe I�m going to say this, but: Suck it, Ashlee!