Chapter Twelve:
Boxed in My Head:
Sometimes, I
walk through my head to calm myself down. My high school therapist was the one
who came up with the idea.
“Picture your
happiest memory,” she said. “Don’t say it out loud. Just picture it.” I find
myself in a maze of yellow walls. It doesn’t frustrate me though. I just walk
and walk while lost in my thoughts. There was no sound around me. There were no
people around either. It’s just me. I walk with just my thought. The destination
was not the point. I was just walking to clear out my mind to help calm down.
I started my
mental walk after I hung up from my current therapist. By then, I fell asleep in
my old bed again.
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Around seven in
the morning, my mother opened my bedroom door.
“Celeste!” she
said. “Could you go downtown and get me a can of dried tomatoes?” I grumbled as
I rolled over in bed.
“What time is
it?” I asked with a pillow over my head.
“Celeste!” mom
shouted again. “Get up now! I need those tomatoes this morning. How am I
supposed to make my spaghetti casserole without tomatoes?” She reached down and
pulled away my sheets. I screamed as I huddled up into a ball.
“Get up! Get up!
Get up!” my mom shouted over me over and over. I covered my head with the pillow
in vain. I finally sat up and groaned.
“Alright!” I
wailed. “I’m going! I’m going!” Mom watched me closely as I climbed out of bed
and walked to my bathroom. Why does this keep picking at my wounds? I could
still feel her eyes boring into my back. Can’t she just leave alone for three
hours?
Moments later, I
was dressed and heading out the door. This should be a quick and short trip,
right?
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Meanwhile,
Detective Daniel sat in the grocery store parking lot. He had the day off today.
Gave him plenty of time to go over the case in his head. They had the main
suspect but that where she was. Nobody was willing to give up anything. Either
they were too scared or didn’t like police at all. Daniel rubbed his forehead.
“Maybe it was
mistake to be transfer back home?” he asked himself. What could he do? What’s
done already happen and he had to at least solve this case before he could
consider what to do next. This parking lot wasn’t exactly his first choice to
hang out anyway. Daniel was just driving around to fill his time and decided to
take a break. He cranked up the radio and let his mind get lost to Blue Oyster
Cult’s “(Don’t Fear) the Reaper” playing. His brother got him into this type of
music. Tony was stand-up guy during their youth. There was this particular girl
that he stood up for during junior high.
Daniel reclined
his chair back. He couldn’t remember what her name was for the life of him. He
shrugged to himself. Oh well, it would come to him. Eventually.
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I shoved my
hands into my pockets. When was the last time I was here shopping in the
downtown district? It gave me chills thinking about it. I shook my head. I
haven’t seen anyone I know yet. It would be kind of foolish to hope it will stay
that way. I won’t take to long on this trip. Just get the stupid tomatoes and
get out. I looked down at my feet. Should take about a few minutes. If did have
to talk to anybody, I was just going to keep conversation down to a greeting and
saying that I was fine. If all went find, I could get myself a cup of coffee on
the way home. Okay, I can do this.
I wanted it down
to the Piggly Wiggly and pulled into the first parking spot I could find. I’m
amazed that this town hung onto this grocery store as long as it has after all
of this time. The bigger supermarkets never really took off around here. Sure,
we have a McDonalds, Starbucks, KFC, Burger King, Wendy’s and other fast food
chains in this town. But the people never gave up on the smaller stores. Loyalty
is a strange thing, I guess.
I climbed out of
my car and made my way across the parking lot the sliding glass doors.
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Daniel happened to see sit his seat upright when he caught a flash of dark brown walking by his car. His eyes grew large.