Heaven Inside

-Jun�ko-

I have to have control. Everyone tries to baby me. At least now, I have a monkey to control. Ozzy is an idiot. Yet, he has some use. He us my current bodyguard. (Baby-sitter is more like it.) He came to me after my brother died. Ever since then, he�s been nothing but stupid. I have to take charge all the time. So annoying, really. I don�t know why I bother. He�s a lost cause anyway. I don�t need the headache. But, I can�t leave. I have to stay, that�s what my brother would�ve wanted.

Hmph.

My brother. Heh. There was nothing good about him. He was never home. All that bum did was drink and live the gangster life. He had so many girlfriends that I stopped counting by junior high. Our parents died when I was little. So, my brother raised me or rather I raised myself.

I had no choice, you see? I�m surprised my brother even thought about me before his death. The last time I saw him was six months ago. I don�t even fully remember that day. We might have been fighting. All I remember is him walking out the door. Ever since then, I had to take control for myself.

I worked three jobs through high school. I didn�t have a social life. Never had the time to. I made plenty of enemies though. It�s a small pride to maintain my power. Come on, what else was I to do?

I looked at the clock in the motel room. 4:38 in the morning, huh? I can already tell it�s going to be a long day. That�s what happens when you deal with idiots. Me? I have a whole gang of them to deal with from now on. It�s a pain, but I can do it. I have to stay on top, you know?

Though, I am curious about something. Who the hell shot my brother?

�Ozzy,� I called as I sat on the motel bed at seven in the morning. The dummy looked up at me.

�Yeah?� he asked.

�Who killed my brother?� I asked.

�But you can�t!�

I glanced over my shoulder at him. �And why not?�

�Because��

�Because?�

�I said you can�t.�

I turned around to him. �Excuse me?�

He paused and stared at me with big eyes. �I mean� We�ll come with you, all of us.�

I turned to the door. �That�s better.� I smirked to myself as I walked outside. It�s not much, but I can hold on to this power until I get to ditch these losers after I find my brother�s killer.

Babe, I�m Gonna Leave You