Chapter LVIII:
I am the soul of
darkness. I did not want this. I was forced down this path. Why didn’t I turn
back? I had the chances, but I either didn’t take them or couldn’t. She always
got in my way.
Her.
Luna. Because of
her, I am like this. Every time I try to turn back to the light, she goes and
drags me back down. I still don’t understand why she was interested in me in the
first place. I gave up asking about her motives. She was never going to tell me
anyway. She just did things when she wanted to. I’ve tried to get away from her,
but she always managed to find me. I have been trying for years to get her out
of my life.
Even through
that, I still tried to live a normal life. Part of me didn’t know why I was
still doing that. The first two times with Elizabeth and Maddie proved to be a
bad idea. I’m guessing that the desperation to turn back to normal hadn’t died
inside of me.
I dryly chuckled
to myself. Me still being innocent at that point? It almost feels alien to me.
But yes, I used to be a good person. That was a long time ago now. Heh, time.
That doesn’t exist for me anymore.
Speaking of
which, I am never alone for too long. Others come and go. Not just the ones I
love. Others like me. I can’t really tell them apart. When you’ve lived as long
as I have, they all start to look the same to you. I am used to it by now. The
question is, will they be used to it like I am? Some of them snap and break down
screaming. Others look so empty after living in my world for a short amount of
time. Come to think of it, I am like the latter in a way. I am like they latter.
Actually, I am the latter.
You don’t want
to be in my world. There is no love or light here. I may be used to it, but you
won’t be. Trust me. It was easy for me. The later wars only made it worse. If I
find you in my world, I will not be afraid to chase you out. You aren’t supposed
to be here. I will do everything in my power to force you out. If it takes
bringing you have to death, then I will do it.
Dorthey had to learn this the hard way. And ended up costing her everything. Who is Dorthey you ask? Well, I am going to tell you right now.