Talk to Me

*Yuki*

I searched all over for my Shizuma. I looked in our usual places. I couldn�t find him at all. Worry overtook me. I began to fear the worst. What if Shizu-kun really needs my help and I can�t get to him in time? I have to find him. He needs me. I have to help him! I paused for a moment. I can�t help Shizu-kun if I�m in a state like this. I have to be calm to help him. I shut my eyes and took in a deep breath. I took a few breaths. I opened my eyes again. I feel better now. I think better now. I began to go over all of the places that I looked for Shizu-kun in. If I wanted to get away, where would I go? Then, the answer hit me right away. �Of course!� I thought. I raced all the way to the woods.

I looked all around for my love in the forest. So far, I didn�t have any luck. I couldn�t give up. I just had to find him. Then, I decided to look up in the trees. And sure enough, there he was. My love sat in the trees almost out in a daze. My heart relaxed some. Good, he�s safe and sound. But, I knew it wasn�t over yet. Shizu-kun was in pain. He never shows his emotions, but I know. He may push me away, but I won�t give up until I have helped him. I have to start now.

�Shizu-kun!� I cried out. He tried to ignore me. I stayed where I was. �Shizu-kun!� I yelled out again. �Come on, talk to me! Tell me what�s wrong!� He still ignored me. But, I heard him sigh. Oh good, a little bit of a response. At least I�m getting one step on the ground.

�Come on,� I said again. �I just want to help you! Please talk to me! Tell me what�s wrong! I am here for you always!� I could see my love looking at me now. I waited for him to speak.

*Shizuma*

I looked down at that charming idiot. He never listens to me at all. I tell him to go away, he *still* follows me around. I leave him hints, he ignores him. What the hell is wrong with this human? Is he stupid or something? *Sigh* I might as well humor him at the moment. Otherwise, he�s going to hang around like a moth to a bonfire. I turned to face him.

�Why do you care?� I asked him.

�Because,� Yuki told me. �I love you and I just want to help you!� His words actually moved me. Now, I found myself in a jam. I don�t want to tell him the truth at all. But yet, I can�t keep this from him for too long. So what can I do? My heart began to ache again. Why do I care so much about him? He�s just a human! But yet, that boy messes with my head. I can never think straight when I am around him. Damn him! Sometimes, I wish I hadn�t saved him at all. No, I don�t really mean that. It�s just� Damn it! I really can�t focus here! Then suddenly, I let some of the truth slip out of my mouth.

�I just don�t want to hurt you!� I blurted out. Yuki looked at me confused.

�What do you mean?� he asked me. I froze up in a state of shock. Did I� just do what I think I just did?

�What are you talking about?� Yuki asked. �Hurt me how?� I looked away quickly.

�Just drop it, okay?� I shouted. �Drop it and go away!�

�No!� Yuki yelled back. I looked at him surprised.

�But why not?� I asked. �Why do you never listen to me?�

�Because I love you, damn it!� he yelled back. �I love you and I want to help you!� That threw me for another shock. He wants to help me? But how can he? My problems are far greater than what he can fix at all! But yet, I still kept talking.

�I drink blood!� I announced to him. Yuki stared at me in blank surprise.

�What?� he asked. My gut instinct was telling me to stop on. But, I just couldn�t stop for some reason. I just kept on talking.

�Years ago,� I explained. �I tried to kill someone. She turned out to be a priestess. For my misdeeds, she put a curse to drink blood after I kill in order to survive. For years, I have fought my cravings. But now, they are resurfacing again. I just don�t want you to end up as one of my victims!� Just then, my craving came back again. A tight pain shot through my chest. I couldn�t breathe. �It keeps getting worse!� I thought in agony. It all slowly became black around me.

�Shizu-kun!� I heard my love cry out again. His voice sounded so far away to me. It all suddenly went black as I began falling out of the tree.

When I awoke moments later, I found myself in our den at Yuki�s house. He had put me to bed in our cot. I saw Yuki sitting on the bed next to me. I looked at him confused. Why didn�t he run away and leave me when he had the chance? Is he that stupid to *even* want to die by my hands? Did any of my words sink into him at all? My Yuki turned around to me.

�Oh good,� he breathed out. �You�re okay! You had me really worried there for a moment! I dragged you all the way home myself.� I tried to sit up, but my love pushed me back down.

�You try to get up,� he whispered to me. �Just rest.� I did so reluctantly. Yuki smiled and lightly kissed me on the lips. I just let him do so without any resistance. He pulled away from me and sat up. I lied there in silence for a long moment.

�I don�t get it�� I mumbled aloud to no one in particular. Yuki turned back to me from looking out the window.

�Don�t get what?� he asked me.

�Why are you doing this?� I asked him without thinking. �Aren�t you afraid I�m going to kill you? Why do you still stay with me even though I tell you to go away? Why won�t you just let me be?� Yuki lightly pressed his forehead up against mine.

�Because,� he said in a low voice. �I love you. I love you and I�m going to help you no matter what. I just can�t turn a blind eye when you are suffering. So, I�m not going to go away. I am going to stay with no matter what. Are I clear?� I smiled at him on that one. I sighed at him.

�Fine,� I said in defeat. �You win! I�ll belong to you!� Yuki smiled back at me.

�Very good,� he replied. �I�ll bring you some dinner in a few minutes. Just stay in bed and rest. I don�t want you to scare me again like you did today.� I nodded at him. He smiled and blew a kiss at me before he left the room. I looked up at the ceiling. What can I say? If he wants to risk his life just to be with me, I�ll let him. He won�t listen to me if I chase him off anyway. Yuki just does it all out of love.

Love Will Never Quit