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*Katsuya*

I sat in the living room in a daze. My head was aching badly. I felt so sick. I�m sure I hurt Sakura-chan again. Sometimes I remember what I did to her while I was drunk. Sometimes I don�t. Either way, I feel so guilty about it. Every time we fight, I storm off in anger and go to the nearest bar open. Alcohol has consoled me since I was thirteen. It is like me other girlfriend. But the problem is a drink for me turns into six or seven whole bottles. When I get drunk, I turn lusty and violent. I am so violent that even Sasuke and Kakashi avoid me when I�m drunk. Sakura is the only one who has the heart to stay with me when I had too much to drink. I guess I drink to forget about Okichi. I can never forgive myself for what I did to her. It wasn�t my fault! It wasn�t my fault!

Then, I heard footsteps. I could tell it was Sakura-chan. She was heading to the kitchen to make breakfast for us. I hated to see face after whatever I did to it last night. It would just tear me up inside. Seeing my damage to her would be like seeing an angel after a war with a devil. Well, time for some damage control.

�You know baby,� I began in a loud voice. �Today is the day to start over. So let�s forget about our fight we had yesterday and kiss and make up.� I heard water running from the sink. She was trying to tune me out. �I really am sorry!� I called out. I still didn�t get an answer. My love didn�t seem to believe me. I became angry as usual. Sakura-chan used to forget on the bat and we would be hot and heavy again. But lately, she stopped believing me. I clinched my chopsticks tightly. �HEY BITCH!!!� I yelled. �I AM APOLOGIZING TO YOU!!! SAY SOMETHING!!!� Then, the water cut out abruptly. Now, she was mad too. Here comes another fight. �You always say that!� Sakura yelled. �But it�s always the same story!!! We just end up back where we started! Nothing changes! You�re not really sorry! You just say that to make stay!!!� That really pushed it for me. I rose to my feet, stormed into the kitchen, and grabbed my love by the wrist violently and flung her against the wall. �WATCH YOUR TONE WITH ME, YOU WHORE!!!� I snapped. Instantly, I felt her trembling in my hand. I looked at her face. Sakura looked as if she was going to cry. I did it again! I scared her. Why did I always end up doing so to her? She didn�t deserve to fear me. Sakura-chan didn�t want that and neither did I. I had become a heartless monster to her.  We never had this problem before. We used to be loving and understanding to each other. Now, everyday was hell and winter for us.