Sinking

-Phoenix-

I have died before. Yes. I think it was two years ago. I remember it now.

-Two Years Earlier-

The details were still hazy. I knew it had something to do with water. I was falling in. So dark. So cold. I can’t move. It’s like something is pressing down on my chest. I… I can’t breathe.

“Phoenix. Phoenix!”

I about jumped as someone touched my shoulder. Katie smiled at me.

“Oh,” I said. I remember this. It was Saturday that day. I think it was. Katie gave me an odd look.

“Are you feeling okay?” she asked.

“Yes,” I think I said. She put her hand on my forehead. Our mom wasn’t home that morning. I don’t remember anything else.

There was a pool. Yes. There was a pool. I was by it. I stood on the edge. I don’t remember what I was doing there. I remember there was someone with us. A boyfriend maybe? I know it was a boy. I don’t remember his face. He did give me candy one time.

Oh! I wish I could remember! I almost can see it. It’s so blurry.

I know what happened next.

I was pushed into the pool. He pushed me in. Then he held me under by my head. I struggled to swim up. He wouldn’t let up. I didn’t know how long I was held down. The last thing I remembered was everything going black.

When I woke up, I was in a world of darkness. I might have been falling. Or was I floating? There was nothing. No sound. No light. I couldn’t even feel my body. Did I just… die? I should’ve felt scared. But I felt nothing. I was… there. But not there. So this was what death was like. I don’t remember how long I was in that place. I just felt so numb. I might have gone to sleep while hoovering there. The next thing I knew I was laying on my back by the pool staring up at my sister. She looked relived to see me alive. And I don’t remember what happened after that.

-Present Day-

I don’t know why I’m remembering that now.