Iï¿½m not going to be a loser today! I should do something meaningful! Iï¿½m tired of not doing anything! I hate my job. My dreams are all dead. My girlfriend constantly nags me. I just need a change man! But, itï¿½s too early in the morning to do that!
I glanced over at my clock. Itï¿½s only seven oï¿½clock. Itï¿½s my day off and I should do something useful today. I closed my eyes to think. Letï¿½s see. What can do to make a meaningful stance in my life?
Maybe I clean the apartment for a change? That wonï¿½t matter; itï¿½s already clean anyway.
Maybe I cook for Julie once in a way? I canï¿½t even cook. Iï¿½d probably end up burning the food by mistake.
Maybe I fix something around the apartment? Thereï¿½s nothing broken to fix! I shook my head in my bed.
No, Iï¿½m thinking too little here. My moment needs to be bigger. Something on an epic scale. I paused for a moment in my thinking. Okay, maybe not that big, but I just have to do something! I glanced over at my clock again.
Itï¿½s only 7:03? Only 7:03? How is that even possible? It feels like I have been digging in my brain for some answers longer than that! I shook my head to myself again. All of that thinking and Iï¿½ve come up with nothing so far. Sad, thatï¿½s just sad.
Maybe, Iï¿½m just not ready for this sort of thing. I probably should just lie here in bed until itï¿½s time for me to get up. Maybe then Iï¿½ll have my head on straight and think about something meaningful to do with my life. But, if I quit now, I wonï¿½t have accomplished my goal. Iï¿½m tired of being the underdog. I have to stand up and fight! But first, I have to think of something big to be epic at. And so far, Iï¿½ve come up with nothing.
Suddenly, my cell phone rang. I reached up to pick it up.
ï¿½Hello?ï¿½ I asked under my sheets.
ï¿½Ben?ï¿½ a womanï¿½s voice asked. ï¿½Itï¿½s me, Lisa Howell.ï¿½