Where Do We Stand Now?

I look at all of my friends.

We don’t have much else going for us in our lives. Seven of us are NEETs. None of us are in school, have jobs, or have any sort of training. We live at home with our parents too. Only Julie, Ben, and Kele have jobs and are going to a community college.

Even they aren’t really happy with their situation.

But why won’t we do anything about it? Fear, laziness, or something. It could be a number of things. Either way, it’s pretty sad. Yeah…

Even the angels and children think we are pathetic. Yeah…

I am no different. Looking at my life right now depresses me. I really don’t have much going on for me. My job searches are a joke. I don’t meet the qualifications that most of them require. Still, I need to look for something. I can’t stay in that house anymore with my sanity falling apart.

I looked over at my closed bedroom door.

I’m not the only one disappointed with life so far. Lisa is bored with her life and Kris wishes for better things to happen. Julie is bored and wants better things with her life as well. Everyone else is listless. I don’t really know what I want.

Still, we want to change. I don’t think we know how or where to start. All we do is talk and screw around. As each day goes on, it gets sadder.

I sighed and pressed my hand to my forehead.

I didn’t used to have to think about all of this. What changed? Kele asked me what I was going to do with my life.

“I don’t know,” I said. “I haven’t thought about that.”

“Oh,” he said. I sat up in bed, tilting my head.

“You?”

Kele leaned back in bed. “I don’t really know myself.”

“You have a job.”

“Yeah. But it’s not like I want to do IT forever.”

“Hm…”

I don’t know, maybe we need something to happen. Something big. Something that will throw us off and make us think it out more.

I smiled and shook my head.

You know how that saying goes? Be careful what you wish for, you just might get it.

I rubbed my forehead.

Yeah…