Chapter XXXVI:
I am alone.
I spent decades
trying to keep it together. It’s a game to her. She won’t let me go. That
doesn’t stop me from trying. I am still trying to fight to reclaim what’s left
of my life. I don’t know why. I don’t have anything left. My family is dead. I
have been through many marriages. I’ve had many children. They’re all dead now.
Back then, I was
taken in. The owner of the tavern found me on the street. Here I go again. She’s
trying to help me when she doesn’t know anything about me. But I can’t stay here
too long. I will end up putting her in danger. That’s why my Elizabeth died.
But she’s not
really dead.
I see her every
night. She stands across the room to stare at me. She always has this cold look
in her eyes. It’s almost like she blames me what happened to her. It’s not my
fault. I blame Luna for her death. Even so, my first wife will never forgive me.
She will keep haunting me. I don’t know how to make her go away. The church
can’t help me anymore. I’m beyond that point. I can’t be saved. But I can’t die
either.
She’s looking at
me again. I don’t know what to do. Part of me doesn’t want to do it. I should
just let her be. I deserve this after all.
But I can do
something about Luna.
She’s the one
who put me through this. I have a plan to kill her. When she dies, I will be
free. I didn’t know this at the time.
At the time, I
was lying in a bed above the town tavern. The owner already went to sleep.
Before the sun rises, I will slip out and be on my way. Where will I go? I
haven’t gotten that part figured out yet.
If you think my story ends here, you are wrong. In fact, my path down to the darkness is only beginning.