Chapter
Twenty-Seven: Cracks in the Cage:
Maybe that old
lady was right. I didn’t see how my kingdom was poisoning my wife and son. Hell
is no place for an angel that hasn’t fallen. But I knew that. Still, I didn’t
want to let them go. I had already lost one family. I wasn’t going to lose
another one.
449 years was
how long I kept them. That’s right. My wife and son stayed with me that long. I
refused to let them go. They were my family after all. Maybe that’s why I
couldn’t see the problems at first. It could’ve saved me so much trouble.
That ring around
her neck was the first sign. Bayu started to notice it herself.
“Sweetie, what’s
they on my neck?” she asked one morning. I looked up from our bed.
“Hm?” he asked.
Bayu turned to me from water wall. She pointed to her “collar”. My stomach
dropped. When did it get darker?
“Let me see,”
she said. I climbed out of bed and looked at her neck. I had to lift her chin
for a better look. The line looked a dark purple now.
“Does it hurt
when I do this?” I asked. I poked the line with my finger.
“No,” Bayu said.
“What is it? Should I be worried?” I dropped her chin.
“I have no
idea,” I said. Bayu frowned at me. I shrugged and shook my head.
“Isn’t there a
way to get rid of it?” she asked. I frowned as I took a moment to think. I took
her by the hands.
“I will see what
I can do,” I promised her. “You don’t have to worry.” She started to smile a
little bit.
I did the best I
could for them. I really did. I did take a little bit of blood from Bayu’s neck.
I promised her that I would have it tested. And I did send it off. Testing was
going to take a few days but I wasn’t too worried. I stroked Bayu’s hair.
“It’s okay,” I
whispered. “I will look after you.” She gave me that little smile of hers. That
along convinced me that I was doing the right thing. It was all for my family I
told myself. I was all for my family.
Irani seemed to
be doing well in his new home. We started to get closer together. I got him to
talk for a little bit. I still do most of the talking between the two of us.
Seeing his little smile put me at ease. He adapted to living in my kingdom
without any help. Maybe it was because he was so young. Maybe he hadn’t pledged
himself to my former boss. It didn’t matter to me. I was just happy to be making
some progress with my little boy.
“Daddy, what’s
wrong with mama?” Irani asked me one day. I turned to my son.
“What do you
mean?” I asked. The little darling looked down at his feet.
“Mama just seems
sad all the time,” he said. “I saw her crying this morning.” I stopped in my
tracks and knelt down in front of him.
“What do you
mean crying?” I asked. Irani looked down at his feet. He started to chew on his
little nails. Hearing about my wife crying made my stomach drop. I pulled my son
into my arms.
“Aw, come here,”
I whispered. I looked up at the light red sky. “Mama’s just going through some
things. I think she might miss home.”
“But isn’t this
home?” Irani asked against my chest.
“Well, yes,” I
said. “But she has another home too.” The words came out so bitter from my
mouth. Part of me wanted to vomit but it was true. Irani’s question told me that
I needed to try and fix everything before it got worse. I looked my son in the
eye.
“I am going to
talk to Mama today, alright?” I asked. Irani started to smile.
“Okay!” he said.
I smiled and patted him on the head.
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I would be
talking to Bayu many times. It seemed to go around in circles when I did. She
would insist that she was fine. That “collar” around her neck slowly got darker.
It never hurt her. Despite her words of being fine, she sometimes looked like
she was ready to cry.
“Baby, what’s
the matter?” I asked. She forced herself to smile as she shook her head.
“Nothing,” she
said. “Nothing, I’m fine.” I pulled her into my arms.
“Look, I want to
help you,” I said. “But I can’t do that if you won’t let me in.” Her eyes
shifted away from me. My stomach dropped. Come on, don’t do this to me. I
love you and I want to help you. Bayu slipped out of my grasp.
Some days, the
happiness felt forced. It’s like she’s afraid of me. I don’t want her to be. But
I was running out of ways to district myself from the truth. The paradise I had
built for us both was starting to crumble.
But then, there
came another kink in my plans. Two little words from Bayu caused everything to
fall into chaos. It hit me harder than any blow to the head could.
“I’m pregnant.”