Everyday is Exactly the Same

WhisperedgoodbyeandshegotonaplaneNevertoreturnagainButalwaysinmyheart

    *Sakura*

    I peeked out the window real late at night. I hid under our summer sheets near the closet so Katsuya wouldn�t see me through the window. I feared him every second. Even when he was sober he was a dangerous man. But his drunkenness, that�s what I feared the most. Katsu-kun would beat like a dog and then claim he never touched me when he was sober again. On the surface, Katsuya and I were the perfect couple. But we fought constantly. He even rapes me every night when he is drunk.

    Why did I date Katsuya in the first place? After Sasuke-kun left, I was heart-broken. Even though Katsuya was worse than Naruto at the time, he and Naruto comforted me. In time, I realized that Katsu-kun was just like Sasuke-kun and that�s what attracted me at to him. Naruto and I often argued about me new closeness to him. Naruto told me countless of times that this was a bad idea and I would suffer greatly for it. I told him he was just jealous and Katsuya was more than what he would ever become. Now, I wish I had never said that. Because now I see Katsu-kun for his true nature. I live in fear everyday.

    Then, I saw a figure swaying closer. My heart raced in terror. Katsu-kun was home now. I knew to stay away from him when he was drunk. When he was drunk, Katsuya was a different person. One time when he was drunk after an argument, Katsu-kun came upstairs to our room, yanked me out of bed, and threw me to the ground. I pushed myself to sit up in pain. When I opened my eyes and saw him, Katsuya�s eyes were blood red and glassy. Soon, we were fighting.

    �All right, bitch!!!! Tell me the truth! You�ve been with another man, haven�t you? HAVEN�T YOU!!!� he slurred out. �I don�t know what you are talking about!� I yelled back. �DON�T LIE TO ME YOU WHORE!!!� Katsuya yelled. �I KNOW WHEN YOU�RE LYING!!!� �I�ve been faithful to you for three whole years!!!� I cried out. �Why would I cheat on you now?� �LIAR!!!� Katsuya screamed. Then he threw a bottle of sake at me. I ducked quickly. Katsuya stepped closer and I crawled away as fast as I could. I was finally able to stand up and run. But, he began to chase me around the house. �GET BACK HERE, YOU SLUT!!!� Katsu-kun yelled. Then he grabbed me by the shoulder, pulled me down, and beat me until I was out cold. He was more advanced into skills than I was. Katsu-kun could pin his prey down as long as he liked and beat them to death. The last thing he to me before I fainted was, �Stupid whore!�

    Why do I stay with him? I love him and I want to save him from his self-destruction. Where others see a monster, I see a man begging for help. Naruto still tries to help me, but I try to keep him away from Katsuya because I don�t want him to die. Naruto almost died to protect me from Katsu-kun. I just can�t have him risk his life again. I just can�t! I would never forgive myself if either of them died.

    �SAKURA!!!!� Katsuya yelled from downstairs. I kept silent and still. Maybe he won�t find me. The footsteps grew louder and louder. I grabbed my dragger and held it close. I hate to use it on him but it�s going to be him or me tonight. I refuse for it to be me. Then, the footsteps stopped. �SAKURA!!!� he yelled again. �COME DOWN HERE NOW!!!!� I won�t go down there; I�m not getting beaten tonight. �IF YOU DON�T COME DOWN, I�LL GO UP THERE!!!� he slurred out. I clinched the dragger tightly. Here he comes! I heard him thumping loudly up the stairs. I just had to lie still and then ambush him.

    But then, it all stopped. I froze. What was going on? I slowly crawled out from the sheet� only to find him standing over me. How did he get up the stairs unheard by me? He was too drunk to use any skills to do so. Now, I was terrified to move. Katsu-kun just laughed and beat me repeatedly with the sake bottle. All I kept do was beg for mercy and try to duck. My love just laughed and kept beating me. I finally blacked out again. This is how most of our nights together end.