Uneasy in the Sky

-Natalia-

I really donï¿½t like how things are being set up now. Everyone is getting to circle to people outside of our group. Izumi is the one I worry about the most. Sheï¿½s sleeping with another womanï¿½s girlfriend. I donï¿½t mind her being gay, but she could at least date a single woman. Izumi is playing a dangerous game with that woman. I tried to voice my concerns to her. She only brushed me off.

ï¿½Oh come on, Nat,ï¿½ she said, ï¿½Itï¿½s just a bit of fun.ï¿½

ï¿½But what if the girlfriend catches you?ï¿½ I asked. She just shrugged at me and went back to her room. I canï¿½t seem to reach anyone these days. If I could, we would cut these ties and focus on getting back into Heaven. Yet, they donï¿½t seem too interested. That alone worries me.

Thatï¿½s not my only problem, however.

That weirdo, Russell, keeps trying to be friends with me or something. He creeps me out too much. I donï¿½t know how to get through to him and tell him off. I donï¿½t even know what he really wants. To be honest, heï¿½s just annoying me. He doesnï¿½t want to give up on trying to talk to me. Finally, I decided to fix the problem. Lucky for me, I didnï¿½t have to try and track him down.

On Wednesday, he found me when I was heading to the post office. I donï¿½t know how he tracks me down. Yet, I found him waiting for me near the bus stop. That black hoodie he wears looks like it hadnï¿½t been washed in months. I donï¿½t even think he bathes. I prepared myself to cut this stupid game out for good. I stopped just inches away from him.

ï¿½Hello there, Russell,ï¿½ I greeted him. He lowered his hood and turned his attention to me. Surprisingly, he looked so pale underneath that black hoodie. I wondered did he have cancer or some other terminal disease.

ï¿½Are you okay?ï¿½ I actually asked him.

ï¿½Yeah,ï¿½ he said, ï¿½Why?ï¿½ I shook my head.

ï¿½No reason,ï¿½ I lied, ï¿½Look, why are you following me around?ï¿½ The empty look on his face didnï¿½t change.

ï¿½I like you,ï¿½ he admitted. I didnï¿½t even try to speak at first. I tried to laugh off what I had just heard.

ï¿½Youï¿½re joking, right?ï¿½ I asked. His face didnï¿½t change. My own face dropped.

ï¿½Ohï¿½ï¿½ I mumbled, ï¿½Why?ï¿½

ï¿½I want to find out for myself,ï¿½ Russell told me. I found myself slowly backing off.

ï¿½Uhï¿½ okayï¿½ï¿½ I said uncertain of where this was going, ï¿½Iï¿½m just going to go.ï¿½ I practically ran away as fast as I could. Every time I think of a way to chase him off, he comes up with a way to freak me out even more. Todayï¿½s mission was a total failure and something told me that wasnï¿½t going to be the last time the crazy would be upped by one.