Chapter XXXVIII:

I had no address back then. I didn’t have a home. I just lived out in the swamp. There was a small, abandoned house near the edge. I rarely go out into town. I can’t say why I went out that night. When I came back home, I panicked. That should not have happened.

I could hear a faint giggling in the distance. My body tensed with fear. No. It’s not like that. Nothing happened. I have no feelings for her. Just let her go. She didn’t do anything wrong.

I turned my head. There was no one in sight. I couldn’t breathe easily. Luna’s been so quiet for so long. Why is she coming for me now? I walked over to my bed across the room. I won’t be able to sleep. Despite it being warm that year, I felt cold. I thought I was going to be sick.

I shouldn’t be living like this. I shouldn’t be living at all. Every year, I wonder if this is going to be the one where I die. Have I tried to kill myself? I thought I about, but I can’t bring myself to do it. My skin felt like it was on fire when a blade touches it. Luna won’t let me drown. Poison ends up disappearing when I try to use it. She’s forcing me to stay alive. I do not want this. I do not want this!

I tightly shut my eyes. I have to end this. I turned over on my bed. Christmas was coming soon. My heart sank as I remembered how I ended up in this place. I couldn’t remember if Luna told me why she targeted me or now. I don’t wish to either.

“Good night, Elizabeth,” I whispered. I could hear her wishing me good night in my head. I could’ve been happy with her. I didn’t kill her. I didn’t kill her! She did this. She took away my wife and family! She has to pay for what she did to me.

I clenched my fists by my pillow.

That was the moment I planned my revenge. That was the moment that Luna and I danced further down into my darkness.